I Tag U!

Name the people you tagged.

• Helena Loh

• Joshua Tee

• Christina Abigail

• Juan Margarita

• Chan Chee Keong

2. Describe yourself in one word.
   Understanding.
   
   3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?
   I would pick both. How can I be happy with the person if the person is not the one I love and if he doesn't really love me.
   
   4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?
   Not really. Im pretty upfront with my feelings that is if I want them to know and if I do I bet they could tell.
   
   5. How if people reject your confession face to face?
   I may be hurt if they are harsh but I would be okay with it. Their lost and besides, I bet someone better would come my way.
   
   6. God is giving you just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?
   I will love you forever and always. Know that ill always be watching you and guiding you cause I shall always be in your heart.
   
   7. What will you say to a person who doesn't want to believe you?
   Up to you then.
   
   8. Was there ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?
   Yeah, I felt bad for the person so I thought of giving it a shot but it never worked. You can never be happy with someone if you don't love them.
   
   9. Do you have something special with you all the time?
   Yes, a good support system.
   
   10. Long distance love?
   If I really love the person then why not but it wouldnt be easy. But then again I dont think my boyfriend would agree to it as he cannot stand being far away from me and neither can I. (ryte boo?) ^_^
   
   11. Best place to cry?
   In my room.
   
   12. Who do you love the most?
   God, my family, my boyfriend and those wonderful ppl who are always there for me.(list to long if were to name you all la)
   
   13. Tell us of your dream last night?
   I cant remember if had one.
   
   14. Ever hated someone so bad?
   Hate is a very strong word. Despise sounds much better but yeah. Hehe.
   
   15. The biggest and most hurtful lie you heard?
   Hmm. i've heard a couple but would rather keep it to myself.
   
   16. The last person you had a beer with?
   My boyfriend, Jabez and Saktia but then again I was only having a few sips cause I hate beer. LOL.
   
   17. The last person you went to the movies with?
   My boyfriend and my mummy.
   
   18. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?
   My boyfriend. Hehe. I Love You Baby Sayang!!
   
   19. The last person you hugged?

   My boyfriend again. Hehe!
   
   20. The last person you yelled at?
   Terran Vincent!! Dumb ass!!
   
   21. In the last week have you kissed someone?
   Hehe. Yeah. My boyfriend of course.
   
   22. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?
   A stupid ex-friend of mine is behaving like an ass trying to stir up problems!! GRRRR!!
   
   23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
   I'd wish my dad was around longer and I wish I would have a happy life and successful career.
   
   24. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?
   Rome, Venice, Italy, Paris..aiyo whole of Europe la better.. hehe.
   
   25. What you hate the most?
   Losing the one I love and failing.
   
   26. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
   My relationship with my boyfriend.
   
   27. Five facts about me:

1. I am super in love with my boyfriend!!

2. i love my family so much!!

3. i am understanding

4. i am patient

5. i love reading, writing poetry and spending time with the ones I love.

28. Five things that scare me:

1. death

2. losing my loved ones

3. failing in life

4. accidents

5. being lonely

29. Two songs playing in my head lately:

1. Boom Boom Pow – B.E.P.

2. Sugar – Flo Rida ft Wynter.

30. Five things I treasure in my life :

1. God.

2. my family.

3. my boyfriend.

4. my friends.

5. my dog

Where Do I Start?

Have you ever had a best friend?
Of course. Many actually.

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
Yeah, I have. In many ways in fact but I have changed for the better. However, I am still true to myself. :)

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Yeah!! I cant wait for my relatives to come down from Phillippines!! Gosh, I miss them!!

Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Kinda but then again as long as those who are close to me know me and those who get to know me can see the real me then it doesn't really matter.

Who is the last person to send you a message on myspace?
I don't have Myspace.

Let's test your memory, what were you doing during your last kiss?
Standing near my car saying goodbye to my boyfriend and his friend before I leave.

Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
Nope.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I bet. I don't know about others but I know my boyfriend is. HAHA.

Who's your guy best friend?
Joshua Tee and Aloysius Gomez.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
My Boyfriend and my friends. Hehe.

Do you know the last person you were in a car with other than family?
Janaki Chelliah

When is the last time you talked to your grandma?
3rd May 2009.

Last time you were on the phone?
I'm on the phone now actually.

Are you depressed?
Not really. More upset actually. I want the damn problems to be solved fast. :( :( :(

Does anyone know your password besides you?
Yeah. My boyfriend.

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Not really.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Yes. Hehe. My boyfriend.

Who was the last person that left you a comment?
Saktia. On my chat box in my blog.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Studying and spending time with my boyfriend, Jabez and Saktia.

Who's the prettiest girl you've ever met?
Saktia Panchakaran, Helena Loh, Janaki Chelliah, Lai Su Yen, Claire-Rose, Jessy Chin, Anastasia and Andrea.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past week?
Yes. With my Babyboo.

Ever go camping?
Yeah I did. During school days. I even hosted camping parties and attended my friends' camping parties. Gosh, I do miss the old days.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
Just now.

Are you missing out?
I am missing out but my time will come.

What are you listening to right now?
Sugar – Flo Rida ft Wynter.

Last time you made a bet with someone?
I don't really do bets.

Will this weekend be a good one?
I most definitely hope so. Besides its mother's day this weekend.

How are you feeling today?
Lazy, pissed off with someone and excited.

Have you ever been cheated on?
Yeah, many times.

Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it?
No! i certainly hope not.

Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone?
Yes of course if they would quit habits too. To be quite frank I quit my bad habits when boyfriend agreed to quit his.

Who was the last peron's voice you heard?
My boyfriend's.

Whats the last thing you made for someone?
Nothing really.

Has anyone dissapointed you recently?
Kinda.

How late did you stay up last night?
4.30am

Are you a morning person or a night person?
It depends but I think I am more of a night person.

What's something you really want right now?
A new handphone.

Do you regret doing something today?
Nope.

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
Yes.

Do you miss anyone?
My Dad.

Do you like Mexican food?
Not really but would love too. I love food!!

What are you wearing on your feet?
Nothing? I'm in the house la.

Are you keeping a big secret right now?
Nope. None that i can think of.

Was your New Years Eve enjoyable?
it was awesome!!! i was in Phillippines but I was missing my boyfriend cause he was in Malaysia during New Years Eve.

How was your Christmas?
It was okay la but I was heartbroken cause it was my boyfriend's b.day but I couldn't celebrate his b.day nor Christmas with him cause I was in Phillippines and he was in Malaysia. That was supposed to be the 1st time he celebrated his b.day with me ever since we got together. So that was upseting. Plus it was my 1st Christmas spent without my dad's presence so a gloomy Christmas it was.

How are you feeling?
tired, lazy and worried.

Do you want to tell someone how you feel?
Yes.

Ever receive a really long apology?
Yeah, from my boyfriend.

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
Nope and I hope it stays that way.

Is there somebody in your life that you could not survive without?
Yeah, my family and my boyfriend.

How many close friends do you have?
Maybe about 10+. Too many to count actually.

Who is the most beautiful person you know?
My Mother.

Most annoying?
Terran Vincent and his father!! Such a****!!

Who in your life has hurt you the most?
Many ppl actually but never mind. What goes around comes around.

Is there someone you know you should hate, but you cant?
I don't really hate ppl, I just despise them.

Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?
YEAH!! HURAJ!! MY SUNSHINE!!

Do you miss anybody?
Yeah loads of ppl.

Have you ever lost anybody close to you?
Yeah, my dad!!! SOBS!!

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not?
I certainly hope not.

Who knows you best?
God, my boyfriend and my friends.

Relationship or Hook-Up?
Relationship, definitely.

Ever been in love with someone?
Uuhhh? Yeah!!

Need anyone?
Yes i do. I am independant but that doesnt mean i would want to be lonely.

Few close friends or many acquaintances?
I have a few close friends that i can trust so many acquaintances i guess.

Has anybody in your family ever let you down?
Yeah they have but they have stepped up.

Anybody in your friends ever let you down?
Yeah they have but I hope it wont happen again.

Who have you let down the most?
My parents but I hope I made it up to them.

Who is your best friend of the same sex?
Janaki Chelliah, Helena Loh, Anastasia, Lai Su Yen, Jessy Chin.

Best friend of the opposite sex?
Joshua Tee.

Ever told a member of the opposite sex you loved them?
Obviously!!!

Who do you know is the most ambitious?
My Boyfriend.

Who is the most frustrating?
Terran Vincent!!

Who is the loudest?
My Brother.

Who is the quietest?
Ee Hann.

Who is the most genuine?
My family,my boyfriend and a couple of my friends.

Who has the power to make your world fall apart?
My loved ones.

Wanna say something to someone?
Love U, Love U, Love U!!!!!

Wish things could have gone differently with someone?
Depends.

Hows your heart lately?
Besides missing my dad its been good.


Written on 5/05/2009

Will I be the next president?

TODAY :

What is today's date?
5th of May 2009.

What was the first thing that happened?
I got a text msg from my boyfriend wishing me good morning.

Who was the first person you talked to?
My boyfriend.

What was the best thing that happened so far?
Hehe. Many things actually.

What was the best thing you've eaten?
Nasi lemak special at Old Town Cafe.

Whats the worst thing you've eaten?
Nothing actually.

Who were you with?
My boyfriend, Anil's parents and Dinesh.

Where did you go?
Went to 888.

What did you wear?
A black top with jeans.

What did you buy?
Iced Tea.

What was the best song you heard?
Sugar – Flo Rida ft Wynter.

What's the funniest thing that happened?
Nothing really.

TOMORROW :

Whats tomorrow's date?
6^th May 2009.

Got any plans?
Going for a movie.

Is there anything you HAVE to do?
STUDY!!!

Who are you going to be with?
My Boyfriend, Jabez and Saktia.

What would you like to get accomplished?
Finish folding the clothes and some paper work for my mum.

Who are you definitely going to talk to?
My boyfriend, Jabez, Saktia, my bro and my mummy.

Do you have to go to school/work?
Nope but I may go to college anyways. Can study better there. Hehe.

FUTURE :

Who do you want to marry?
I want to marry my boyfriend of course cause he makes happy and i love him deeply but only time will tell if everything falls into place.

When do you want to get married?
When i am stable of course but if can when I reach 25.

How do you want to get married?
In church I guess.

Where do you want to settle down at?
I dont know. It Depends.

Whats your dream job?
I want to become a very successful Lawyer.

How many kids do you want?
Only two, a girl and a boy.

What do you want your kid's names to be?
The girl will be Arianna Priyanka Raj and the boy will be Arian Prakash Raj.

Do you want to have kids early or later on in life?
Doesnt matter as long as im married.

What kind of house do you want to live in?
A double storey corner house or a banglo. Hehe.

What kind of car do you want to drive?
Ok I wouldnt go overboard so A BMW!! Its classy, elegant and awesome!!

How many and what kind of pets do you want to have?
As many as I like. I want dogs, rabbits and hamsters.

Where do you want to go to college (if you haven't already)?
Im already studying in Brickfields Asia College.

Written on 5/05/2009

Lasts..

LASTS:
Last beverage → Chocolate cream chip, Starbucks.
Last phone call → My baby pa.
Last instant message → Baby pa again.
Last song you listened to → Bye Bye by Mariah Carey.
Last time you cried → just now while updating my blog.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice → Yes, my boyfriend, almost everyday. ^_^
Been cheated on → yes.
Lost someone special→ YES!! My dad!!

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → not even close.
Laughed until you cried → Yes. Yes.
Met someone who changed your life → yes, you changed my life baby sayang and I cant live without you pa!!
Have you kissed anyone on your top friends? → yes.
How many kids do you want to have → a girl and a boy.
Do you have any pets → YES, my dog named darling.
Do you want to change your name → No, I love my name.
What time did you wake up today → 10 am.
What were you doing at midnight last night → I was on the ph with my boyfriend.
Name something you CANNOT wait for → My cousins to come down from phillippines.
Last time you saw your father→ the day before he passed away, 2nd june 2008.
What's one thing you wish you could change → I wish I could turn back time to day before my dad passed away.
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Nope.
What's getting on your nerves right now → An ex friend and his fly behaving like total asses and making a big issue out of a particular prob!!
What's your real name → i'm suppose to have a fake name???
Zodiac sign → Gemini.
Elementary/primary School → SK Jalan Bukit 1.
Hair color → dark hazelnut brown. Hehe.
Long or short → Very long. ^_^
Are you a health freak → Kinda.
Righty or lefty → definitely a righty.

FIRSTS:
First pet → A dog named Blackie.
First vacation → Not sure if its phillippines 1st or penang.

CURRENTLY :
Eating → Not eating.
Drinking → Drinking.
Waiting → Waiting to meet my boyfriend.

YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? → most definitely. A girl and a boy.
Want to get married?→ Of course.
Careers in mind? → a very successful Lawyer.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Lost glasses/contacts → yes.
Ran away from home → no.
Broken someone's heart → yes.
Turned someone down → yup.
Cried when someone died → Yup!! when my dad died!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → yeah I do!
Miracles → i do.
Love at first sight → most definitely.
Heaven → yes and i hope i go there.. hehe..
Santa Claus → yeah. hehehe.. ^_^
Kiss on the first date → no way. too fast.
Angels → yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes. with my dad. Wish he was here.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → no! Ill never play with a persons heart.
Do you believe in God? → OF COURSE!!
First surgery → no way. Not even close.
First piercing → ears. I was still a baby.
First best friend(s) → Ong Su Koon. I was in primary School.
First sport you joined → Running for my class in kindergarten.

Krazy!

RULES:1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT
SOUNDS.
4. Tag 5 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY:
Until the end of time – Justin Timberlake (LOL)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Big girls dnt cry - Fergie. (alrite!)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The man who cant be moved – the script

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Petrified – Fort Minor . (do i?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Green Light – Andre 3000 (really)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Miss Independant - Neyo. (rock on!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Hypnotized - Akon

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Stay - Estrella (hmm)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Home - Daughtry

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Go on girl - Neyo (huh?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
America's suiteheart – Fall Out Boy

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Live your life – Rihanna ft T.I. (TOTALLY)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Say It Again -Marie Digby

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Kiss me thru the ph – Soulja Boy (Hehe)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Move Shake Now Drop – DJ Laz (LOL)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Every time I close my eyes – babyface (sigh)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Kiss me - cranberries

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR??
Poker face – Lady gaga

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
If I were a boy – beyonce (haha)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Waiting on the world to change – John mayer (yeah dts right)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
There's Nothing – Sean Kingston

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Krazy - Pitbull

Wat a survey!! hahaha!!

i Tag

Juan Margarita
Helena Loh
Joshua Tee
Russell Ganesh
Alexander Loh
Leithiga
Lai Su Yen

A Tribute To My Dad

My dad was a great man. He was well loved by his family and friends. He was a wonderful person at heart who cared deeply for his wife and children and for his mother and siblings. My dad was a happy-go-lucky person who loved having guests around and entertaining his friends. My dad has been the sole protector and the pillar of strength for our family. Its a huge shoe here that has been left for me to fill.

He is a wonderful son,husband, father and brother to us all. He has been married to my mum for 20 years now and has spent his whole life together with her with lots of love and care than anyone could imagine. Seeing the both of them together seems like they just started dating like teenagers rather than being married to each other.

To me, they took the meaning of love to a whole new level. The amount of care they have for each other was unimaginable. He was her very own knight in shinning armour. All the years of my life, I have never seen them being rude or deceitful to one another. They have set a very good example for me and my little bro. Even though my mum was not from here and from a different race, he never once disrespected or mistreated her.

My dad was very well respected by his friends and his peers. He provided us with everything we wanted and tries his best not to dissapoint us. As hard as things may be and as much problems as he was having to go through he would never let us know because he never wanted us to worry. He wants to do it all by himself cause he felt that what was his responsibility should not be put on to others.

He is the type that if i still can do it i’ll do it all. He was responsible in building our family. He took care of everything for us. Even though he was tired and he was getting old that would still not stop him from working day and night to provide a good education and everything else for us. Seeing my dad hold this huge burden on his shoulders tears me up inside for i was helpless and unable to help lighten his burden. He was more concern for his family then for himself.

My dad was a man with a few words, at least he was to us. He doesn’t talk or say much to us. When i was growing up we distanced apart and i thought it was because he didn’t love me but i was wrong. He did love me, very much actually. He just never knew how to show it. Now that i’m older and wiser, i realize now that he did show me love, bundles of it infact, but just not in a way that i would see it.

My dad was a very fit person and for this to happen was an absolute shock to all of us. To find my uncle knocking on my door at 5am to tell me that my dad was in d hospital was a shock for me. I just saw him before he left for a dinner. I rushed to the hospital and when i arrived at the hospital, I found all my relatives there, i knew i was too late. I cant believe he’s gone, and the cause was heart attack..definitely a silent killer indeed. It was creeping unto him..waiting for a time..so unexpected..then it took him..silently but quickly..the shock still has quite resenated in us yet. But then again we cant turn back time and everything happens for a reason. I just thank god that he wasn’t alone when it happened and that we know the truth. I pray that his soul may rest in peace and that he is in a better place with you, O Lord.

(24/12/1957-03/06/2008)

written on 04/06/2008

A whole new yr, A whole new start (hopefully)

Its now the year 2008., i am finally out of high school and venturing into adulthood. Bigger responsibilities are vested upon me now. I am just hoping that the saying “A whole new year a whole new start” really brings out a new start for me but ever since the middle of last year everything has been going extremely well. I’ve been through a lot for these past few years. Many challenges and obstacles had to be overcomed which really put myself to the test and thank god i got through it but i am still going through some of it though.

Life has never been easy for me. I started being very matured at such a young age. I had to grow up fast due to the obstacles that i had to go through in life. Through every experience i learned a lot about life and i grew wiser. Knowing how to protect and keep myself safe and strong. Well at least i try to do so. Through my whole journey so far i’ve discovered a lot of things and throughout my discovery i encountered with many types of people, some were nice and some weren’t.

Life isn’t as bad as it seems though but its not as good either, depending on that person’s outlook on life. I am grateful for everything i have because i know that there are many people who are less fortunate than i am. Besides everyone has problems too, its just that the level of seriousness of their problems may vary..

However, i am really looking forward to this year. After the LOVE & LIFE seminar my life has changed and improved for the better. Relationship with my dad and my family has been renewed and blossomed. My true friends are there for me no matter what happens as long as they know who am i truly. I am finally out of school doing law, its my dream job really and its so exciting. Its all good now really. I am looking forward to find out what the future is instore me though..

Written on 18 Jan 08